I wish to tell you about the huge gift I received exactly 7 years ago. Since then, the picture of my life has changed for the better, accompanied by lots of challenges and a will to transform my life.
My life was filled with much pain and agony that I never expressed. I was totally detached form any possibility to benefit myself somehow. I didn't believe in myself. My self-image diminished and my emotions were locked up in a sealed box that only I could open, but didn't dare to. I was so terrified and chose to end my life by suicide.
I prepared a goodbye letter and planed the details of how to carry out my decision. The pain was unbearable, but the Universe has its own mysterious ways of altering reality.
A search through google brought me to contact Ben and after a phone call I'll never forget, I fell in love and scheduled a meeting. In that meeting something touched my heart. I shivered. I knew I came back home.
Since then, my path is paved with wonderful events and a toolbox which became mine. I'm so deeply moved to celebrate the date every year as the day in which my life renewed and I gained myself back.
I came to Ben with a dreadful long history of sexual, physical and emotional abuse which began before age 3. It led me to disengage my body, to detach any feeling. I was jailed in a cell. I was revolted by my appearance in the mirror and even my lack of aesthetics. I didn't know myself, afraid of my own shadow. On the street I would walk clung to the walls, my head tilted down, loosing breath with every passer-by. I was paralyzed by fear and my death wish was huge. I wanted to stop the lie. I lived in a dead body.
Today, I'm proud of myself on my courage to share my heart with you. I truly learned the meaning of personal responsibility and choice making. I released many old patterns and gained inner freedom, empowerment, self-acceptance and self-love. I developed my ability to say "NO" to negative, unwanted things and say "YES" to my own goodness.
I'm so excited, since every session with Ben makes me understand how wrong I have lived. I'm not to be blamed, and I'm worthy of love. Even when there are challenges I need to breath into them, hug them and understand they're a part of me, of my journey here on this planet. I learned to trust myself, to trust that everything happens for my higher good, to trust my guardian, spiritual angels who step the path with me.
Lately I began my studies to become a therapist. To provide my gifts for a healing way to happiness. I gave public talks about my path from pain to healing, honored and grateful for my choice to live.
Beloved Ben Shomer, a true angel, what a privilege it is to be mentored by you and gain light instead of darkness. I'm grateful for your huge, loving heart, the listening, the endless containment through countless hours of night, holidays, weekends. It means a lot for me! You are charming, and I'm grateful to your parents for bringing you into this world and with you, your magic and healing powers. You saw me and never gave up on me, not even for a moment. You unconditionally accepted me as I am, regardless of my looks or any conditions. I appreciate it all so much.
With a tremendous, endless love,
Shlomit.